I started writing you just over a year ago and I became instantly obsessed. I visited you every day. I thought about you constantly. It was not always the most healthy relationship, but through you I met many incredible people from all over the world. I wrote some funny stuff. I wrote some not-so-funny stuff. I even had a little bit of a fan following because of you. Does 3 people count as a fan following?
And then, mostly through you, I discovered my new passion... photography. Without you I wouldn't have met other amazing photographers who inspired me to improve. I wouldn't have started carrying my camera everywhere so I could participate in Photostory Friday and PhotoHunt. I carried my camera everywhere so that you, my dear blog, would be colourful and interesting and fun.
And because I carried my camera everywhere, friends started to notice and wanted me to take pictures for them. One even suggested I get paid to do what I love.
So the photography took over and I started a business. And you, my original firstborn blog, took a back seat to my new adventure. And now I don't have time for you at all.
I miss you. I love writing. I love spending time crafting words and sentences. I miss archiving everything that goes on in my life through you. I never kept a diary until you, my dear blog, but because of you, I realize that I should have all along because I love expressing myself and my feelings with words.
So, I'm sorry. I'm sorry I've abandoned you for the more urgent need to express myself creatively through photography, while at the same time earning some much needed money.
But thank you. Because without you I wouldn't have known how to create my photography blog for potential clients to see my work. And without that new blog I wouldn't been fully booked until the end of April. Without you I wouldn't be doing something I love and enjoying it so much.
So although I miss you and all my blogging friends very much, I'm happy in my real life which is what I was seeking when I started writing you in the first place.
Please forgive me for not visiting more often, but remember, it's me, not you.
With that said, I am officially putting you into hibernation so I can stop feeling guilty every time I think of something I want to write about and don't. I'll be back when my business slows down or when Csilla goes to school full time. Whichever comes first.
In the meantime, try not to be to jealous of your younger sibling where I still post quite often.
Thanks for everything you've brought to my life in the past year. I wouldn't be where I am right now without you.
ps - I read a great post a long time ago about how to make your dreams come true. (Visit the post here... thanks for writing it Fracas!) I think about this post all the time and have been meaning to write about it ever since I read it. Every word is true. If you simply get busy being yourself and doing what you love to do, the universe will conspire to make your dreams come true. I had to add this because I didn't want to put you, my dear blog, into hibernation without at least linking to a post I thought was so terrific.
Ciao for now.